Sweet Silver Lining

Im going home,

down-hearted and hoping Im close,

to some new beginning.

I know,

theres a reason for everything that comes and goes.

Chorus:

So many people are looking to me to be strong and to fight

but Im just surviving.

And I may be weak but Im never defeated

and Ill keep believing

in clouds with that sweet silver lining.

Verse 2:

Most days I try

my best to put on a brave face

but inside my bones are cold and my heart breaks

but all the while, somethings keeping me safe and alive

Chorus:

So many people are looking to me to be strong and to fight

but Im just surviving.

And I may be weak but Im never defeated

and Ill keep believing

in clouds with that sweet silver lining.

Bridge:

I wont give up like this,

I will be given strength,

Now that Ive found it,

Oh nothing can take that away

Chorus:

So many people are looking to me to be strong and to fight

but Im just surviving.

And I may be weak but Im never defeated

and Ill keep believing

in clouds with that sweet silver lining.

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I think, this song best describes my whole journey this year thus far...

and for the longest time I REALLY felt like I was just surviving, with my head just above water...

I wouldn't lie, this year, having that FAITH as small as a mastard seed was one of the hardest...

so many times I felt like I was having the same fight with God and myself...

And it felt like I was ALWAYS on the losing end...

I like being in control - I like to plan how exactly my life would turn out...

but this year planning wasn't an option for me

And I had to learn how to REALLY let go...

and the funny thing was, when I really did, everything started changing...

This week has been one of the best weeks I had for a while...

I attended Kidshaper conference - and it was so refreshing

Really.

I feel like I finally completed a small part of the puzzle I have been trying so hard to complete for the past eight months, I feel like I finally GET IT...

That revelation of why I had to go to Sydney, why I came to melbourne, why I am STILL here... and where do I go from here.

This week,

I got my miracle. Not because I deserved of it.

This week,

I feel like I can finally let it go and let God take it from here.

This week,

I was reminded of the part I play in the body of Christ

This week,

I made new friends.

This week,

I feel different.

And above all that,

This week,

I TASTED the goodness of God.