Five Loaves and Two Fishes - Corrinne MayCorrinne May Five Loaves And Two Fishes
A little boy of thirteen was on his way to school
He heard a crowd of people laughing and he went to take a look
Thousands were listening to the stories of one man
He spoke with such wisdom, even the kids could understand
The hours passed so quickly, the day turned to night
Everyone was hungry but there was no food in sight
The boy looked in his lunchbox at the little that he had
He wasn't sure what good it'd do, there were thousands to be fed
But he saw the twinkling eyes of Jesus
The kindness in His smile
And the boy cried out
With the trust of a child
He said:
"Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all to feed them all"
I often think about that boy when I'm feeling small
And I worry that the work I do means nothing at all
But every single tear I cry is a diamond in His hands
And every door that slams in my face, I will offer up in prayer
So I'll give you every breath that I have
Oh Lord, you can work miracles
All that you need is my "Amen"
So take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
I hope it's not too small
I trust in you
I trust in you
So take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
No gift is too small
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I recall the first time I heard this song was at The Racha - and only God could have known how much I would need this song to carry me through days like this...
I guess it is so easy to say 'I trust You' this 3 words...
But I am sometimes embarrassed to admit that despite my very long walk with my saviour...
I still find it hard to FULLY surrender - if u know what I mean...
I find it easier to laugh it off - and say it is in God's hands while in a crowd
but when it comes to my ALONE time with Him - It is a whole 'nother story...
I bug Him about it day and night...
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I finished another book last night at 4am - A walk to remember
It left me crying and laughing and crying again...
It was NOTHING like movie... the book had so much more spiritual depth to it...
It talks so much more about faith and miracles...
something that I so need at the moment...
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and then talking about miracles...
recently with
Colour just around the corner - I have been getting a string of emails urging people to register, anticipate and pray for the upcoming women's conference...
and I recall, last year at Colour I specifically refused to sign up for the 2009 conference cuz I had no idea what I'd be doing this year - I mean I was optimistic that I would find a job in no time...
and I thought that, as a new employee, it would be hard to get leave right?
And so fast forward one year, I am left reading all these emails, and reminiscing about Hillsongs - of which I really do miss so much...
I still dream about my Cubby House Kids :)
and wishing that I had actually signed up for Colour cuz well - I am currently VERY FREE :D
One afternoon, I got a call from Hillsongs and the really sweet lady on the other line asked about the Bush fires which hit Victoria recently... she asked if I was affected and if I knew anyone in particular who needed prayer...
and to my surprise she ended the conversation with "I'll see you in Colour!"
At first - I brushed it off assuming it was a mistake... I mean it had to be right? I don't remember signing up for it... (though I secretly wished I had)
And so a couple of days passed - me still getting more emails from Hillsongs... (apparently, my name is still in the Cubby House database and they still want to know if I am available to serve on Sundays 11:30am *haha*)
I was also still bugging God about how much I do miss Hillsongs - and praying that someone would suddenly NOT be available to go to Colour and I miraculously would be able to attend... but who would sell their ticket now right? Colour is ALWAYS sold out... especially this year when it's at the Entertainment Centre... :(
and then one evening, when Darrel's dad came in with the mail - and he informed me that I had one letter from Hillsongs...
I was... well... I felt normal then - cuz I have been getting a whole lot of mail from them...
But much to my surprise... and I so did not see this coming - they sent me a RED ARM BAND for Colour!!!
Seriously, I could feel blood rushing through my head - with my heart starting to beat much faster than usual... I could not believe my eyes... I checked the date - it was conference 1 (the weekend one)
NO!!!! Who did this!!!?!?
I started calling people I knew... First, was Branda - cuz I was placed under her group and I knew it MUST have been her cuz well... who would place me under her group right?
but it wasn't her... and her argument was - 'how in the world would I know your Melbourne address?'
Well good argument point I thought... But then the mystery was still unsolved...
I mean who then would have placed me under Branda's group and also knew my Melbourne address???
and so obviously we came to the conclusion that it had to Darrel!!!
And while waiting for him to come home - I kept thinking...
'wow... my husband is actually SWEET - that he would do something so thoughtful and of course OH-SO-SWEET like this for me - knowing how much I wanted to go for conference... He must have thought I needed it too...'
*smiles to myself*
But to my horror... my husband was even more blur than I was - He thought I was absolutely out of my mind... HECK... he didn't even know WHO Branda was!!!
Cis... and he was even like 'If I DID sign you up... I must have forgotten all about it' *sigh* still trying to take credit for it...
Anyhows, I continued calling people... still trying to find my good Samaritan...
I even called my mom - funny huh?
well... she thought I was finding things to occupy my mind as I was getting too bored...
and yar... Her advice was that I should just enjoy the conference... and start booking the first flight available up to Sydney...
So practical... Very unlike the mom that I know...
But I still itched to find out WHO it was...
Anyways, that night while I was filtering through the mountain of unread Facebook emails, I saw one urgent one from a friend from Sydney asking if I had received my Colour armband...
My mind started going wild... thinking to myself - How in the world could she have known??
so I called her up at 11pm - thankfully she wasn't asleep yet...
and her response was funny...
she was like... 'I remember you told me last year at the recording you signed up for 2009 Colour conference... and that's why I signed up too'
and so I sat back - trying to digest what she had just said...
It couldn't have been... I mean I am a freakin' accountant... I would have recalled if I actually PAID for the ticket myself!!! I mean I ALWAYS know when money goes OUT of my pocket... Heck I always know when money goes out from Darrel's pocket!! :p
and so the mystery is half solved... I vaguely remember being convicted by God to sign up for the 2009 Conference cuz He thought I'd need it...
I guess it is strange - but I don't recall actually signing up for it...
I guess - miracles do happen in funny ways huh?
In this case, I'd like to think that God made me sign up for myself and made me totally forget about it...
Just because - He wanted to surprise me again... and Just because...
He knew I'd need it at such a time like this!!!
Or MAYBE...
(just as that child in me likes to believe) Maybe my good Samaritan really does exist!!
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and so wooohooo!!!
I'm off to Sydney this end of March!!!
Can't wait to catch up with all you Sydneysiders :)
I have NEVER been more excited!!!
