Camouflage

Camouflage - Brandy

Firstly I'd like to apologise for the silence... Have been preoccupied with that AMAZING anime 'One Piece' *haha*

and of course with many other wedding prep stuff... :) of which are all coming into place SLOWLY...
I have also OFFICIALLY gotten the green light to get married since I have miraculously FINISHED uni recently!! ie. passed ALL my final semester subjects and am now no longer a student and am officially UNEMPLOYED *haha*

I really can't believe that I am finally a GRADUATE majoring in Accounting and Finance... the accounting part is not that much of a surprise... but the FINANCE part is definitely miraculous... I can't even begin to describe the countless times I was worried and cried over my finance subjects... I still remember the first finance unit that I did - Corporate Finance 1...

The exam was SO HORRIBLE... See, I have NEVER been the smartest student in class... but yet... most of the subjects that I have done in the past, I can safely say that at the very least - I could ATTEMPT the exam questions - by crapping a bit here and there... and although I don't think I have done all that well in those subjects but at least I passed right?

But this was different... I still remember flipping through the paper during the 10 minutes reading time and froze...

All the sub questions were continuous... whereby if u couldn't answer the part (a), then u most probably won't be able to answer part (b) or part (c) or part (d) etc... and I remember the first question I attempted was a Net Present Value question... The problem was none of the given information was enough to answer part (a) and hence I couldn't even continue for the rest of the questions... and obviously at the end when they asked if I would invest in the company (base on the calculated NPV in the various parts of the question) I had absolutely NO idea if the company was undervalued or overvalued!

And this happened for the rest of the paper... as in I literally could not attempt ANY of the questions... It was seriously living my WORST nightmare! and I went home crying thinking that I would fail that subject for sure!

That month - that was my prayer for my miracle offering (it is this thing that Hillsong Church does)... Although I knew (in theory) that all things are possible with God - A big part of me didn't dare to believe it...
I guess I was afraid that it was ME who didn't work hard enough... or maybe I was undeserving of such a miracle... I started creating excuses such as maybe - Finance is not my 'thing' after all...

But now looking back... those excuses were so stupid... YES I am undeserving... YES maybe I did not prepare enough... and YES - Till the end of my degree... I still think that Finance is NOT my 'thing'... but that just makes it even more miraculous right?

So yar... today I can bravely testify that it IS a miracle I have come so far...
No matter what people might say...
as long as I know that it IS a miracle :)

it is enough... :D